The Anxiety (as in, Lots of It)
My car's sold.
I've been in school the past quarter and am into my second-to-last quarter.
I've applied to nine grad schools and have (so far) scheduled auditions for four.
Right now, I have a lot of anxiety. So I figure a break-down of what I'm needing to do will help me realize if it's really as taxing as I feel it is.
1. School: I'm taking 16 credits, including a math class that I need several hours of tutoring in per assignment. Literary & Critical theory involves lots of reading. Sculpture is a blast, voice lessons are challenging and amazing, and my Sermon on the Mount class makes me wish I were graduated. It's very stupid.
2. Work: I grade for a class called Writing for Engineers. Yep. That takes time. I also work for the drama department organizing the greenrooms and doing makeup design/instruction for shows. I'm waiting for my Washington massage license to stop pending.
3. Acting: I'm Mrs. Higgins in "My Fair Lady," and am heading down to the KCACTF festival for a week in February where I'm in an intense scene for my friend's directing competition, am auditioning for a lot of shit, and am presenting my makeup designs from one show.
4. Grad school: For my auditions, (the first is January 22, the rest are in February bookmarking the KCACTF week) I need to know a comedic & a dramatic Shakespearean monologue, a dramatic & comedic modern monologue, and have prepared a dramatic & classic scene with a scene partner. That's a total of four monologues and two scenes, and then I also need 16 bars of a song memorized. I need headshots printed professionally as well as resumes, and I really need to get my hair redone so I match said headshots. Joy. I'll be traveling to Seattle for one audition and to San Fran for the others. Expensive. Yeah.
Okay. Actually, this does calm me down a bit. It's not as bad when I break it down. And when I don't think about everything at once.
Right now, I'm going to try and sleep. I would like to resume yoga in the mornings to relax and slim me down, but somehow I don't think that'll be happening. We'll see--it's hard to tell.
I've been in school the past quarter and am into my second-to-last quarter.
I've applied to nine grad schools and have (so far) scheduled auditions for four.
Right now, I have a lot of anxiety. So I figure a break-down of what I'm needing to do will help me realize if it's really as taxing as I feel it is.
1. School: I'm taking 16 credits, including a math class that I need several hours of tutoring in per assignment. Literary & Critical theory involves lots of reading. Sculpture is a blast, voice lessons are challenging and amazing, and my Sermon on the Mount class makes me wish I were graduated. It's very stupid.
2. Work: I grade for a class called Writing for Engineers. Yep. That takes time. I also work for the drama department organizing the greenrooms and doing makeup design/instruction for shows. I'm waiting for my Washington massage license to stop pending.
3. Acting: I'm Mrs. Higgins in "My Fair Lady," and am heading down to the KCACTF festival for a week in February where I'm in an intense scene for my friend's directing competition, am auditioning for a lot of shit, and am presenting my makeup designs from one show.
4. Grad school: For my auditions, (the first is January 22, the rest are in February bookmarking the KCACTF week) I need to know a comedic & a dramatic Shakespearean monologue, a dramatic & comedic modern monologue, and have prepared a dramatic & classic scene with a scene partner. That's a total of four monologues and two scenes, and then I also need 16 bars of a song memorized. I need headshots printed professionally as well as resumes, and I really need to get my hair redone so I match said headshots. Joy. I'll be traveling to Seattle for one audition and to San Fran for the others. Expensive. Yeah.
Okay. Actually, this does calm me down a bit. It's not as bad when I break it down. And when I don't think about everything at once.
Right now, I'm going to try and sleep. I would like to resume yoga in the mornings to relax and slim me down, but somehow I don't think that'll be happening. We'll see--it's hard to tell.
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